Pain

I'm starting to have more pain in the lower back in sides...whitch for me is not good the doctor told me that i've lost more kidney function and wants me to go see my kidney doctor to find out just how much I've lost. I know that I need to and I do plan to but it scares the hell out of me. Since I was little I have had problems with my kidneys and doctors have been telling me that I wasn't going to make it and that I wouldn't have kids. I have two great kids and i'm in my thirty's so they weren't right but sooner or later there going to get it right i just don't want it to be now. I'm not giveing up or do I ever give faith in what they tell me and am always out to prove them wrong...it's just me never can do anything easy. I have my good days and bad just like everyone dose it just seems like i'm having more bad day latley. Anyway I just need to bleed some of this out so thanks for letting me bleed this out so I can breath easy for awhile.