I've been haveing some of what I call my dark days again... I'm have nightmares again about my husband not being faithful and about stuff from when I was younger, so needless to say I'm not sleeping good. We have been doing better in our marriage but there are days that I have these bad feelings that he is hiding stuff from me. Which is not good and I know this but at the same time I don't know if it's real or if it's just me being scared that he is back to keeping stuff from me. I don't really know what to do anymore. Some days I wish I could just getaway for a few days with out him or the kids to just have sometime to myself to see where my head really is, but then I know I would just make myself sick from worrying what he was doing and if the kids where ok. So i'm glade that I can bleed out hear or write on one of the books that i've been writing or to lose myself in a book that i'm reading. Even if there is no one reading this it's still good to just get this stuff out of my head and if you are reading this thanks for letting me bleed.